A story of living with invisible illness

March 22, 2024

Chapter 41: I was a victim of an online scam

Are you currently looking for a job? Do you have your resumé posted on job sites? Well, be careful. I was recently a victim of an online scam and lost $2000. I felt like such an idiot. There were red flags everywhere, and I did not see them.

March 1, 2024

Chapter 40: Everbody Hurts

So what is surviving suicide like, you may be asking? It’s complicated. First, there is a feeling of having failed. If you attempted it, it’s because you wanted it - but it didn’t happen. So, there is a part of you that still wishes you had been successful. In my case, I don’t feel an overwhelming relief that I’m still alive. I’m still enduring the same physical, emotional, and mental suffering. Surviving it has left me bewildered.

December 25, 2023

Chapter 39: I'm A Loser Baby

That’s right. I’m a loser. I’m not a loser as a person; in other words, I’m not calling myself a loser because I feel I’m unworthy or lack self-esteem. I’m calling myself a loser because I have, over time, lost everything that truly mattered.